Obsessions of a Perfectionist

School destroys me, and yet I can’t function without it. It’s both my best friend and worst enemy. I know my relationship with school is unhealthy, but I can’t seem to get myself out of the web my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) has created. I know I have to work to improve my mental health, but I don’t know how to live without my OCD with school. Each day my anxiety is so high at school I’m on an adrenaline rush all day long. I’ve gotten used to the feeling that I might

One lick and my mind freaks out. I’m contaminated, unclean, I’m going to get sick. I was excited to get a dog, they are great companions, but in the back of my mind I worried about how I’d handle it. Dogs are a bridge between the outdoors (full of contamination) and inside (my safe haven). Getting a dog is exciting, but my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is getting in the way of my relationship with the new member of the family. The dog, Lincoln, is adorable, but to my OC

I lay down on the couch, completely exhausted, after battling a half an hour of extreme anxiety just to practice French Horn. My school anxiety is ever growing, but has yet to overcome the extreme exhaustion and lack of motivation to live that overtakes me on the weekend. I think back the times when I enjoyed practicing my instrument without anxiety, when my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) about school was better under control. With all of the setbacks I have had, is ther

Every new year resolutions are made, only to get tossed out the window after a week or two. I’ve made many of those kinds of resolutions, ones with ridiculous expectations that were far from realistically achievable. However, this year will be different. My resolution is to not have a resolution. I will not set up another unrealistic expectation to get upset at myself for not achieving. I am still going to fight towards improving my mental health, but work to not beat myself