Obsessions of a Perfectionist

I have an overwhelming urge to use strong alcohol or acid to burn the inside of my mouth. I eat oranges or lemons to try to lessen the urge, but it doesn’t do much. I have yet to burn my mouth with alcohol (thankfully), but each day that passes without a burning sensation in my mouth the urge grows. This is the new way my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is spinning off of my fear of getting a mouth disease. I have had issues with teeth brushing in the past, at the worst b

Despite all of my achievements, I have no confidence in my abilities. Any confidence I gain I immediately tear down. I want to be confident in myself, but my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is currently taking that away from me. For as long as I can remember, I have always thought that I did horrible on things. Even if I knew I did well, I would convince myself otherwise because of my OCD. My OCD tells me that if I think that I did well on something, I would cause myself

Dear friend, I am sorry. I’m sorry for not being as good of a friend to you as you are to me. I’m trying my hardest, but I know that it usually isn’t enough. You are always there for me through everything I am going through, and yet I am barely able to be there for you. I’m sorry for the negativity that I give to you. I try so hard to be positive about things, but when I’ve been extremely nauseous for a week straight, the inside of my mouth has been bitten raw, the tic in my

Reading is my absolute favorite thing to do, but I don’t read a single book for fun during the school year. I really want to read, and I often think about it on the weekend, but my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) doesn’t let me. It has taken books away from me, instead saying that I have to be productive otherwise I’ll live on the street and die homeless. In middle school, I read all of the time. I’d often stay up really late on the weekends to finish a book, usually read