Obsessions of a Perfectionist

I have become terrified of people. People say that they are a good person or Christian or trustworthy, and then I find out that they’ve done some really questionable things. I see people as clean and pure, but now I’m realizing they they all seem to be tainted and it’s terrifying. My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is taking hold, making me question myself and those around me. Students around me cheat all the time and don’t seem to care about it. They don’t see anything w

I was driving on the interstate, worried about being late, when my vision suddenly goes out of focus to the point where I can’t see anything except bright light. A few second later when I get my vision back, I see that I’m halfway off the interstate in the ditch. I jerk back on the road, terrified, surprised, and confused. I could have gotten injured or even died had there not been just grass on the side of the road. Once again, a new incident is taking over my entire life, f

I repeat the same quotes for my speech over and over again for hours, trying to get rid of the feeling that I’m not prepared. After running through my historical speech a few times I was ready and should have felt fine, but instead I spent four hours running it over and over and over again. Even after four hours spent practicing I didn’t feel ready, it still wasn’t good enough, wasn’t perfect. Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) has taken natural perfectionism and spiraled it

Where are you planning to go to college? What do you want to major in? Have you thought about dating? Where do you want to live? Being a junior in high school, these questions are coming more and more frequently, with me not really having a clue how to answer. I have no real clue what I want to do in life or how things are going to turn out. I don’t even know if I will be able to handle my future, and that terrifies me. High school is usually the time when people start dating

On the outside I’m smiling and laughing with my friends, but on the inside I am falling apart. However, most of the time no one has any idea that I’m panicking. All they see is a happy face, maybe a little fidgety or drowsy, but nothing out of the ordinary. My impressive acting skills get me through school in one piece, but I feel like the biggest fake on planet earth. It isn’t uncommon for me to have panic attacks in class, but no one notices since it doesn’t involve me cryi